Man what a day. Started my day off on a really emotional note. I noticed she was acting weird and I asked her why, and when she told me, it felt like i got hit by a train. It was totally unexpected, but I understand that she has her thoughts and feelings too. I had her come over and reassured her about everything. I hate seeing her like that, seeing her upset, crying, feeling insecure, I love her, and she’s perfect for me, and there’s no one else I would rather have in my life. She’s the ultimate girlfriend, the ultimate best friend, and she reassures me, makes me feel comfortable in my skin, and I feel loved. I always want her to feel 100%, on top of the world, do whatever, and know that at the end of the day, I’ll love her just like the very beginning. She’s all I ever wanted, and I used to doubt to myself that I could never get someone like her, but she loves me and accepts me, and I ALWAYS want her to feel the same, and to see her hurt, and crying, it hurts. I hate seeing her cry, because it makes me want to cry, seeing my mom, and her cry, those are the two things I hate the most. Whenever she cries, I have to try EXTREMELY hard not to cry, because I know if I do it’ll upset her more, I think I do a good job of reassuring her and making her feel better. I love you to death, and you’re perfect for me, and you’re everything I wanted, and you’re the ultimate best friend, and you make me feel like I’m in my own little world and like I’m the fucking king. I love you Emily, and don’t ever feel down, or feel like you’re not good enough, because honestly, dude, I’ve never had something so good in my life.

You make me happy dude. I used to think that I wasn’t good enough, that I was stupid, that all the smartness and successfulness went to my brother, and I got stuck with the shortness, uglyness, and stupidness. I used to hate school, I used to feel alone, like I had no friends, like I couldn’t be myself, because I didn’t have guy friends, and I felt like I couldn’t be myself because girls wouldn’t like my personality, and I’m already ugly so why would they like me? (lol haha) I used to hate school and I thought it was pointless because my GPA dropped freshman year, and I thought I was too stupid to turn it around. I turned to weed to find friends, and to feel happy, and feel like nothing mattered. I used to go to school to go through the motions, and make sure I did good enough to get a c-. When you came into my life, I completely turned my life around. You motivated me to push ahead, to turn my shit around, to actually do my work, you made me believe that I was smart enough, you gave me encouragement to turn my academic life around. And look at me now. I know my grades aren’t impressive, but you help me break a bad habbit, that no one could help me get out of, my parents, my brother, money, rewards, none of that helped. But you did. You gave me the feeling of acceptance. I knew that at the end of the day, no matter how many ugly faces, no matter how many times i laughed so stupidly and ugly, no matter how immature and hyper I acted, I knew that at the end of the day you’d still be around. Having you be there, gave me the confidence to step out of my comfort zone, be super friendly to people, not care who talked shit, do the STUPIDEST, most IMMATURE, and border line gay shit, and you’d still be around. You gave me the confidence to be myself, and make friends. 

I love you dude, you helped me turn everything around. And when you came to me crying and telling me how you felt, I absolutely hated it. Not because I hate that you get upset, I just hate seeing you feeling like you’re not good enough, and all that other stuff, because I thought I wasn’t good enough for you. I honestly thought that I’d never be able to make you my girlfriend because I never had a long relationship before. And I thought you were too pretty, and that I was too ugly, and I thought that you were out of my league. You’re perfect for me, you’re a total catch, a complete package, and even though you have your insecurities, (which is normal), I have mine too. I have just as many as you do, but I learned to push it aside, and not pay attention to them, because I know that you accept me and love me for who I am, 100%. And I want you to know. That I’m in love with you, your personality, your body, your face, your family, everything. And at the end of the day, whenever you’re feeling insecure, just imagine all your insecurities, are written on a $20 dollar bill, and no matter how hard I try to look for it, I will never see them, find them, or notice them. Because like the $20 dollar bill I lost in my car, I’ll never notice them. 

I love you dude!

Happy almost 7th month

blckppl:

i can’t fucking breathe 

if you like laughing watch this holy fuck

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Man when I really think about it. I’m fucking blessed to have such an amazing girlfriend, and having our whole situation so perfect. Like we live five minutes away from each other, we get to see each other all the time, and we’re going to the same college next year. Like dude out of all the possible things that could happen, we end up goin to the same college. Like it’s crazy how everything happened perfectly, and how we ended up together, and fate and everything is setting us up and pushing us together to succeed. I’m glad you’re gonna be around with me in college, it’ll motivate me and pick me up when I’m having trouble. I love you forever and I know you know it. And we’re being set up to be together forever :)

meladoodle:

its weird to imagine important people as kids. like obama probably wrote ‘boobs’ on a calculator and laughed

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himynameisdk:

EVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIL.

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Haha that shit was the cutest! Had me nervous all day! First I was like “is this even mine? watch it not be mine.” but then it turns out it was. And as I start getting the notes, and when I see that you’re actually at school, it hella through me off, and I was so scared that someone else was asking me to prom. I had a perfect afternoon of spending quality time with you, cuddling, working out, getting dinner, and watching the sunset with you. I’ve never watched the sunset before. It was an amazing day with you, it felt like we were the only people in the world and like I was in my own personal kingdom. You’re very special to me and you do so much for me, even when you think youre just chillin and stuff, you still give me a reason to push on, succeed, and just be happy. You really make me happy and you make my llfe so much easier and fun, knowing that I can act like a crazy idiot, look scrubby, and you won’t be scared away. Haha I love our relationship and I’m lucky im in love with my bestfriend. Thank you for being understanding, trusting me, and just sticking around and putting up with me. I love you =D

Laughter talking it out is the best medicine

Hey you! You’re an amazing person, and I really mean that from the bottom of my heart. You’re an absolute sweetheart because you’re so nice and friendly to everyone, and it’s super adorable when you act so innocent and cute. Haha. I’m so glad I have you in my life, because you really do help me be a better person. You push my lazy ass do actually do work and succeed, and even tho I don’t believe in myself sometimes, you’re always there telling me I can do whatever I want if I set my heart and mind to it. And that really helps. Before you came into my life I was pretty much ready to give up. It was too late for me to get into USF, I thought to myself I wasn’t smart enough to do nursing, I didn’t know who my friends were, and I honestly didn’t really have friends until senior year came around and I started hangin out with people I didn’t expect myself to hang out with. You helped me get out of my comfort zone because once we started getting serious I felt comfortable enough to act a fool, being completely goofy and just be myself around everyone, because I knew that I could be myself and that wouldn’t scare you away. I used to think that something was wrong with me because I could never have a girlfriend for more than a month or two, and that I questioned why I couldn’t have a serious relationship. But that changed when you came into my life. Not only do you make me happy, and make me feel loved and appreciated, but you instilled this drive in me to succeed, to lead, and to step out of my comfort zone and just do me, even if it’s me doing the stupidest shit that makes you question “what the fuck is Christian doing?!” You mean the world to me. And you’re a special individual. You’re perfect because you have all the qualities I need for myself, and all the qualities that make a relationship so much easier, just because we are able to avoid unnecessary disputes and what not. You’re mature, chill, and immature “in a fun way” and it makes things less boring and more spontaneous. I love hanging out with you because I can never expect what we’re gonna do. I’m excited to be going to college with you next year, because I’m scared, I hear people failing their classes, and getting kicked out and stuff, but I know having each other around, we can help each other and cheer each other on. It’s a new major step in our lives, and it’s a new chapter in our lives together. I love you to death, and I’m yours forever. “Ketchup”.

Everyone’s with their family’s or at parties and I’m home alone. I’m hungry, but not hungry at the same time.